"Living through intense heartache and sorrow in dreams that are so real you wake up in a panic."
A little saying I thought up after having unpleasant dreams a few nights ago. I thought it turned out somewhat poetic, actually.
     Even though I shouldn't, I guess I still have fears of being left alone. I've read so many stories of people being cheat on, or left without even expecting it. Honestly, it's painful to even think about not having Sam in my life anymore. I tell myself constantly that I have no reason to worry about anything; it's just my underlying irrational fear I suppose. What if one day I'm just too boring and I'm no longer good enough? I like to tell myself that I'm quite the catch.
     It's funny how words are taken so lightly. What happened keeping promises and being people of our word? There was one point in time that verbal contracts, promises, commitments MEANT something. Everything is just legal, papers, how can I sue this guy to get some money for myself because I'm a greedy bastard. If there was any one person in the world that would keep his word it would be Sam. I should have no reason to worry. It's just one of the many things I have to work on.