I hate how relationships are treated nowadays. I despise going down my news feed and reading whiny peoples' posts about how they are single or whatever. Relationships are not a walk in the park. They take time and work to be successful.

Girls these days are so blinded by books, chick flicks, and whatever else that they have these huge expectations for men to fill when they just CAN'T. Never hold someone to a standard that you can't keep yourself. I realize guys seem to be getting less romantic or "ideal" as the years pass, but hey, that's what happens. The standards women are held to are being lowered, so that's going to reflect in men. If you want a man to be a total gentleman that is going to spoil you at your every whim- then maybe you should be a housewife and wear dresses all the time and care to your husbands/boyfriend's desires. Give him a blow job every day, and sex all the time- maybe then you'll get what you want. If you want a picture perfect man, you have to be a picture perfect woman. So until you can do that, you should just shut the fuck up.
I'm certainly not perfect. But I do know a lot about relationships considering my age. I have only been in 3 relationships- two of which have lasted longer than a year (current being 3+) so I must be doing something right.

I think everyone just has their priorities all screwed up when it comes to relationships. If your relationships aren't working out, maybe the picture above says it all. You're just throwing it away because it's not working. If you have a problem- COMMUNICATE. Not saying that's always going to solve the problem, but I'd say about 75% of the time it will. 

     "Living through intense heartache and sorrow in dreams that are so real you wake up in a panic."
A little saying I thought up after having unpleasant dreams a few nights ago. I thought it turned out somewhat poetic, actually.
     Even though I shouldn't, I guess I still have fears of being left alone. I've read so many stories of people being cheat on, or left without even expecting it. Honestly, it's painful to even think about not having Sam in my life anymore. I tell myself constantly that I have no reason to worry about anything; it's just my underlying irrational fear I suppose. What if one day I'm just too boring and I'm no longer good enough? I like to tell myself that I'm quite the catch.
     It's funny how words are taken so lightly. What happened keeping promises and being people of our word? There was one point in time that verbal contracts, promises, commitments MEANT something. Everything is just legal, papers, how can I sue this guy to get some money for myself because I'm a greedy bastard. If there was any one person in the world that would keep his word it would be Sam. I should have no reason to worry. It's just one of the many things I have to work on.

Meh.

I'm bored.

That's the first time I've said that in a while actually. I usually am off doing things with friends. I should be doing so tonight since there's no school tomorrow. But that's okay. I like sitting around home once in a while.

Some one should text me though so I have someone to talk to!!!

I still feel half empty. I've filled it halfway with friends and dance. But the other half is still gone.

*sigh*

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